The last week has been difficult! In part to something that happened that hurt so deeply i can't talk about it. But i got home late last Weddnesday, i think. The days run togther like raindrops on a window paine. Since i've been home i have spoken to 3 people. My good friend Debbie listened to me cry on the phone. She just listened. Then she came over and brought supper and we watched movies and then we did something i can't commit to print! (not really as bad as it sounds) Our friends the cabinetmaker and his wife came by for a visit today. They brought some exotic fruit i had never had. It were good. And Khan patched a hole in the wall for me. They are good friends.
I've been wandering through the house seeing things that have memories and crying. My Chuck Museum. I haven't felt like reading Gods Word or praying. I couldn't sleep last night for the pain and i pleaded w God to speak to me. I got out my 31 Days of Praise book and read and prayed for myself. God please speak to me! Then my phone signaled that i had a text message. It was from someone that moved away. This distant friend sent me words of encouragement. How did they know i was at my most desperate time?
I had been feeling alone and abandoned by everyone. I am still lost when it comes to what to do with the bills and the tax Return still needs doing. I did a few calls today and got a few things done.
I said i would write about my plans (Gods plan) to spend 6 or so months in Kiev, Ukraine. I leave Sept 21 and will meet up with our missionaries, The Elsingers< in Amsterdam, the we will go together to Kiev. I will be working with a Parish Nurse from the EFCA (Evangelical Free Church of America). Her name is Pam. It will be a busy time but it will be rewarding. It will help me get my mind off Chuck. When i was there he wasn't, so i want be looking for him or asking his help, because i didn't when i was there before. He knows that was my plan when he died and he was ok with it.
My main prayer request is that i will be there to gloryify God in all that i do. I need prayer that i will develope my relationship with Him the way it once was. I also need prayer for my health. That i will be able to keep up the pace. God has done that for me before. I claim 2 Cor 12:8-11. His grace is sufficent for me because His power is made perfect in my weakness.
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